Throwing Off My Mental Shackles

So there I am in my local bookshop browsing away when I happen to listen in on a conversation.  A man and a woman were discussing their Christmases. With my over-active imagination, it sounds like they are tired of living to excess.  Parties galore are a thing of recent past.  They move on and talk about presents and walks and friends and happiness.

That’s when the feeling of inadequacy hits me.  The questions arise; what did I do for Christmas? Where have I been, what have I done?  The answer, not a lot.  On the surface that is the case, anyway.

When I returned to the flat, I took the time to think about what I have done.  Some might consider it too much, others, not enough.  Whatever they think, by comparing myself I risk losing my sanity.

I am who I am, but there are times when I’m not always comfortable with that.  I strive to better myself but I am in danger of destroying myself in the process.  This year has seen a dramatic change in my life.  From a man who was little more than a hermit two years ago, I found myself going out countless times.  Next year, I have plans to change my life once more.  As I have learned though, plans are no good if you don’t set them in motion.

I’d like to end now with a phrase found in a fortune cookie

‘The greatest battles are that with our own minds.’

Take care everyone, wishing you all a happy new year, wherever you are.

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4 thoughts on “Throwing Off My Mental Shackles

  1. A Happy New Year to you too, James. Reserve comparisons for inanimate things which can be accurately, quantitatively measured and take good care of your sanity. “The greatest battles are that with our own minds” – pretty profound for a fortune cookie! – And true. Many of us are wandering that battlefield with you my friend. Love and light. Xx

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  2. Happy New Year to you!
    Each change you make is chipping away and refining who you are and making you a better writer – and a better man. I look forward to watching you grow and develop in the coming year!

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