Who are you?

For many years I thought I had this down.  I knew who I was and what I wanted to be.  Then, suddenly I was doing my dream job.  So why did I have a nagging feeling that something wasn’t right?  Why did I doubt myself?  This was it, I had arrived, doing what I always wanted.  But I wasn’t happy.

It was only several years after leaving my dream job did I understand that I was not truly happy there.  When you are a child you are asked ‘What do you want to be when you grow up?’  But at that age, you don’t know, you don’t even care.  The weekend is too far away to think about let alone ten years.  Even as you draw closer to that pivotal moment in life you may still be unsure.

I should know, it took me to my mid-thirties and a lucky chance before I hit on something.  Is it too late to change? No!  I have a friend who changed careers and he’s just turned fifty.  But what about all the time, effort and money that’s gone onto getting me this far?  Nothing is wasted if all you are doing is refocusing your skill set.

One major skill my past life taught me was self discipline.  Setting aside an hour a day dedicated to writing.  Don’t pretend you’re going to do it, you will just be lying to yourself.  But what if I don’t find my one true calling?  Then you are lucky for instead of being a specialist, you are a polymath.

Someone who brings many different skills from a wide range of disciplines is useful to have.  They can bring fresh ideas to the table enabling the specialist to run with them.  These new ideas can change the world subtly or in a way that is beyond our imagination.  In the Renaissance period you were not considered a true gentleman until you were a polymath.  If you’re still not convinced, notable polymaths include Leonardo da Vinci and Galileo.

So, who do you think you are; specialist, polymath, undecided?  Why not leave your answers in the comments, I’d love to hear what you have to say.

Tourist Town

Fighting through the crowds of wannabe photographers is a tall, lean man.  He walks with a slow, purposeful air but his eyes tell a different story, he is searching.  The grey spots move back and forth, flitting from one to the next.  A new target is found and discarded in less than a second.  The seething mass of people move and change before his eyes making his job more difficult.

He is smelling the air too, looking for a special fragrance.  He does not know what it is yet but he has convinced himself he will know it when he finds it.  To intensify the odour, he keeps his mouth closed.  It is a pity the only smells to reach him so far would make a sewer proud.  Sweat mixed with copious amounts of hairspray assault his senses.

What is it he is looking for and why must we be looking at him?  Because it is with him that the future of this town rests.  He has the power to hold the bored spellbound.  He is the one who wants to learn, to understand.  This man wants to immerse himself in the culture.

The man in question is not the first of his kind.  There have been many before him and better qualified too.  The only thing they have lacked is timing.  Now, when interest is at its lowest and the fire in the soul of the last resident is almost out, does he appear.  His furtive questioning is a glimmer in the night.

“Excuse me.” he tries in the native language.

The person he is addressing holds his head in his hand with a disinterested air.  Eyes focussed on nothing as the mass changes once more.

“Excuse me.” he tries a second time.

In between, our quiet spark has taken in his surroundings.  Like the man he has addressed, it no longer functions in its former state.  Dust has gathered everywhere, from tables to shelves and bottles to glasses.  A bare patch underneath the resident’s head is all that remains.  Slowly the eyes turn upwards and registers someone is addressing him.

For too long he has been ignored.  Before then he was spoken to in many languages, but never his own.  Has he forgotten his mother tongue?

“I’d like to order some food?”  says the spark.

The words are not perfect, far from it, but it should suffice.

The hand comes down and slaps the table hard.  The mass of people jumps like a flock of disturbed pigeons.  The quiet spark does not move.

“What can I get you, my friend?” the tone is flat, impassive.

“A local speciality, if you please.”

“We have your American burgers, English fish and chips, Japanese-”

The spark holds his hand up, stopping him mid-sentence.

“Local speciality.”

The words hit the resident like a wave crashing on the shore.

“You want local cuisine?”

“Yes.”

“Local to here?”

“That’s what I came here for.  I want to know what it is to eat it.”

“But why don’t you want the other food?”

“I can get that at home.”

“But the others-”

“Are not like me.  Now please, I’d like some local food.”

The resident looks askance at this strange being now.

“I’ll have to cook it.”

“I can wait.” the spark answers.

To reinforce his words he removes his jacket, walks over to a chair and sits down.  For now the resident admits defeat and shuffles off to the kitchen.  Bangs, crashes and curses emanate from the door.  Time limps on like a man with a wooden leg.  An hour passes before the resident returns with a steaming plate of food held in both hands, reverentially.

“There.” he says, placing the food in front of the spark.

The resident’s voice is a mix of triumph and relief.  A confused look passes over his face as the spark leans over.  A moment later it is replaced by one of wonder.

“Smells delightful.”

“Thank you.”

Looking through the window of the restaurant the resident sees the closest of the mass pressing their noses to the glass.  The aroma has performed its magic.  Cautiously the door opens and a head is poked inside.  The owner, on confirming the origin of the smell asks hesitantly

“Are you open?”

The resident is dumb-struck.

“Yes.” he answers, unprepared for the outcome.

First one, then three, then eleven are through the door asking for their share.  It is too much for the resident.

“Please, form an orderly queue. I’m sure our friend here can’t wait to serve you.  But as you can see there is one of him and so many of you.” says the spark.

Without further prompting the eleven form behind one another.  Sheep could not have done a better job of being obedient.  The spark smiles as the resident relaxes.

One by one they are served.  The pace quickens until by the last, the resident has delivery down to ten minutes.  Each one leaves with a smile and a full stomach.  Turning to his new friend the resident says

“A thousand thanks to you.”

“No need.  All I did was to bring a spark to what was already here, you did the rest.”

“How can I repay you for bringing that spark?”

“Keep the fire going.  One day I shall return and we can laugh about the days of old.”

With that the spark rose from his seat and left.  To honour his new found friend the resident renamed his restaurant ‘The Spark of Life.’

 

And so dear friends we come to the end of the story.  If you’d like to see more of my works, why not head over to my writing page and have a look.

 

No Fear

So there I was on my favourite form of public transport minding my own business when an old gentleman boards.  Before he sat down, opposite me I might add, he starts addressing me as if we have met already.  Within a matter of seconds he has bewildered me and made me smile.

This gentleman is one of those rare people who seem to have no fear when talking to others.  His life, however it may have been lived, seems to have been full.  When he left, he turned and waved making me smile once more.  Once we parted company I thought about his life.  I imagined that his wife would have been very happy living with a man who was cheeky, funny and original.  Yet it could be that this was a public veneer, designed to keep others at bay.  Whatever the real answer, I learned a lesson from him.

Observation is a key skill when comes to being a writer.  Everything you do, see, feel or hear can be catalogued and used later on.  Watch, listen and learn from others.  See how they interact with the world around them.  Surely this gentleman behaved differently to the way I do.  I, like most from my city, keep to themselves.  Books and phones are used by many as a shield to ward off others ‘I am busy, don’t bother me!’

Take what they are doing and try and understand why.  Learning about yourself and the world around you helps to develop your fictional characters and the world you construct for them.

You can always tell me your own observations.  You never know, you might be surprised by what you’ve picked up already.